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Yes, I'm afraid. But it's not just the BP; it's also the BPD. And I fear mania so much that I'm afraid to do many things.
I'm sure you have done everything you could do to prevent your husband's death. You just weren't able to prevent it and that's confrontational, but not your fault. Having BP or not is irrelevant. No one has the kind of power over others that makes you responsible. Ultimately, people are responsible for their own actions.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me.
Last edited by Icare dixit; Jul 02, 2017 at 08:47 AM.
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