I'm not interested in making her a better person or being a therapist police woman. I just want to leave this with some dignity. Funny I went to therapy because at the core I feel unlovable, unworthy, at times I wonder if I am crazy. Out in the world I'm pretty functional. I left this almost 3 year relationship with no healing of the core values and now I have professional distrust, feel uncomfortable in my small town because I don't trust that she has kept this story to herself. It's not the end of the world because I have started working with someone who immediately was able to help me with childhood stuff, thinks therapy won't last more than 6 months, says I'm not crazy . I wish all this did not hurt so much. Despite my pain I still have feelings of love which is insane because she is unavailable and has treated me really badly. What's that about???