I feel like I go through isolation myself, it's not my ultimate choice. There are lots of times when I appreciate my aloneness. I fortunately get along great with my co workers, though there are a couple that are a problem. As they say, "there always has to be that someone!". When I get home from work, I don't feel like talking to anyone for about two hours.
I go to the pool area at where I live and I would have hope of meeting someone. Most times when I go there, I'm by myself. Almost every time that there would be someone else there, I feel like I can't stand them. It's very isolating at where I live because I have nothing in common with my neighbors.
In my life lately, the only choice I have is either to be alone or be with bad company. It's great to be with people I enjoy being with; but it seems like it's too far and in-between if it can happen at all.
I get what you mean by people using you for your kindness. I'm an easy going type person and I feel like there are some who would come along to walk all over me if they can. I also feel like, in order to have a fairly good social life, I have to put myself out for others and they will not do the same for me. For an example: with my friend I have to drive out to his place only if I want to see him. I'm not crazy about doing that. And then with my sister, she expects me to visit her every year, while I have to pay for the air fare. She cannot come and visit me. I don't think that's fair.
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