Thank you everyone. I just took a Klonopin to try to take the edge off of these moods. Maybe I should rely a little more on that.

The skin thing...at first when the dermatologist was debating what it was, I told my partner after that maybe we should wait, in case it was contagious....but he said he'd risk it. Things happened fast, but I kept warning him about it. I even warned him before I came over his house and said we can just hang out without any physical contact. After all, we have the type of relationship where it's not just about hooking up.

He made a move on me any way knowingly and willingly (I know TMI) and was pretty insistent. Now, I feel awful and guilty though, even though I tried to warn him that they are going to determine whether it is viral and that they started to suspect it was. I should have refused to participate in anything with him. It all happened so fast. So this further contributes to these horrible feelings. I don't want him to abandon me, although he said he'd risk it. I am so ashamed and did not mean this to happen. Sorry this is long. I had to get this out.

Even before all that, I was feeling extremely moody with some serious swings. So I can't blame all of it on the infection. It might be the Seroquel after all, and maybe I have no choice but to up the dose. I have a 90 day supply of the higher dose, so I wonder if I get permission to take those, if that would make a difference. Maybe I'll just call my pdoc.