tonight i slept but its only 00.28 and i went to bed earlier managed to sleep but my husband is going to bed at 3am he expects me to come to bed with him there is no way in hell that am going to be able to sleep he says he going to turn the internet off and that i need to try and sleep thing is went to bed at 9pm he give me town prns but am unsure there if they are going to work kinda manic and seeing **** again like the cyber-men from dr who first time seeing them **** know why am seeing the cyber-men from dr who unsure what they want and why there around me maybe they think am the Doctor or some **** **** know am a ****ing basket case i see **** normally so i dont think it has anything to do with me being like this ...maybe

think am going to need to have more prns unsure what am going to do if they dont work possibly call the mental health team and ask them if i can take any more of what i have but i am sure am going to be needing them for another night if i need to take them again or at sometime during the day i cant take loads of prns and that would be bad if i kept taking loads of them
would be problematic most likely id have to go and see the crisis team
its Monday today i have to wait to see my dr on Thursday long ****ing time until then **** knows how am going to cope with this **** i think i should just show up at my psych and ask her to see me
my husband will not be up for that idea but it could work ...i cant even think right at the moment racing thoughts and my head just feel like it has too much in it maybe it will explode or something ....