In general, holidays are a trigger. Every now and then, I'll feel good around Christmas. It's either really good or really triggering, depending on both what is going on in my life, my past, and if I am in any particular kind of episode. I do like Halloween. Birthdays make me feel uncomfortable. I don't look forward to family gatherings that much these days, unless it's only certain people. I cry more on the holidays. July 4 used to be a lot more exciting for me. Now I do nothing and don't have anyone in my life who feels like doing anything any way, so it seems.