Today has been good over all but I just have to get this burden off my chest!! ... MY BF/RELATIONSHIP IS MY BIGGEST TRIGGER, EVEN PLAYS A HUGE PART IN MY SELF CONFIDENCE AND SELF ESTEEM. He don't even try, he don't know he's doing, so it's definitely not on purpose. I honestly think it's our past that continues to haunt me. It's like I can't get away from it and oh yeah that's also the reason why I'm INSECURE.

IT SUCKS because I can not control feeling this way!