Well, maybe I shouldn't be so dramatic. perhaps I'm just afraid of making mistakes that I don't catch. that I am worse than I perceive myself to be. for example, I'm going through something my coworker put together, and it's riddled with mistakes and inconsistencies, like it is not done to perfection as I would have it.

and here I am, wondering, but maybe I am wrong and she is right, and freezing up. because I'm aware that my perfectionism is born of anxiety and compulsion. so maybe it's wrong, maybe when people open the document I slaved over, they won't see perfect, they'll see the disordered way my mind works - repetitive and redundant.