Thank you all, that's reassuring. I've found a counsellor I'm drawn to, just trying to pluck up the courage to make contact. Going from her website, she seems to use a different approach to my previous counsellor which might be more helpful, and is much more local to where I live, which would be good from a practical point of view - I used to have to sit in my car for ages after my sessions as I was so drained and didn't feel safe to drive for 45 minutes on the interstate. I will aim to get in touch this week.