Sorry, Junk: I know how confusing that can be. But your T really does sound like he cares & he's doing the right thing by you, from the bits and pieces I have read. Did he discuss it with you when things changed?

Update: I was going to cancel T for tomorrow, but I ended up seeing him early today, instead. I'm so pleased I did: it was a really helpful session, I feel way further back from the edge, and being with him totally answered the 'does he care?' question in a positive way.

A conversation we had also opened up the opportunity to talk about how Friday felt, when I didn't hear from him all day, and how it connects to the very child like yearning I have for rescue. I thought some more about Mona's 'what do you want from him' question, and I really think I wanted rescue in a way that an adult really can't do for another adult in a healthy way. I think I felt really abandoned when I didn't hear from him all day, and part of me def. was wanting him to swoop in and save me.

Well, I am still here. And I hope to be brave enough to bring it up tomorrow...