Breezy sometimes I have phases where I need my 'down time' my alone time, I think many of us do and that is okay. Some of us don't need as much social time as others and need to recharge.

But if you are isolating because you feel you are unwanted and a burden then that is worrisome. You may be feeling like this because you grew up with emotional neglect in your childhood - that wasn't your fault. If your emotional needs weren't met early on in life then that may well have set a pattern, that you never learned a healthy way of getting your needs met because no one showed you. I'm not a T, and I am just giving you my observations from your post, have you discussed this with a T? It's something they could help you explore.

How you feel now is important, it is telling you how you need to get help and address those needs which may have been neglected.

You do deserve the replies/support you got - we are always here for you.