So I have been an idiot and been off the meds. I am now back on them as of today. I know I have been stupid and I don't really like the idea of taking the meds even now but I think I need to. I am not suffering any side effects (paranoia, delusions, higher anxiety, shakes more than normal or hang over effects). I am feeling really good actually. But last night I was telling a friend who also has bipolar and she kinda made me realise I am playing with fire here. As I say I am not 100% certain I want to be on the meds. Anyways thanks for all the posts means a lot to me.