So, I've been doing pretty well for almost a year now without major depressions (HUGE win), and when I encounter something that would normally tailspin me for days/weeks/longer, it's short-lived - feels like a 'normal' reaction period. I'm keeping up socially, taking more interest in cleanliness (house & hygiene), and doing more quality things with my family. I feel more on top of everything.

But, I don't feel GOOD about myself. I don't feel GOOD about my life. When I get hypomanic, I feel so wonderful and like I'm an amazing person who can do amazing things. I feel intelligent, confident and capable. I find things I enjoy doing, do them, and enjoy the heck out of it. I don't feel apathetic right now (like is my norm in depressions when I'm not totally emotionally sunk), but I don't feel GOOD. I miss that so much...