(((hugs))). I know exactly what you mean. Hypomania (when it's not the irritable kind) makes me feel so on top of the world, confident, uninhibited, enjoying each moment. When it ends, it often leads to devastation or just yearning to feel that way again. I do realize that in the end, hypomania is not worth it since it has resulted in some really bad decisions and situations. That being said, I still struggle with this issue.

I wish I had better advice or input. Just letting you know I empathize with you and can relate. Take care of yourself.