Not trying to say you're horrid--just noticed that you put yourself down sometimes (by saying you are a horrible person). As parents, we need to learn to love our children--period--verses only loving them if they always tow the line. The right to happiness means that you have the right to make your own choices within reason. Part of being a parent is learning to let go and let our children just be who they are. You may be unable to talk to them because they might not tolerate disgreement well, that sort of thing. One of the ways I got "lost" in my marriage was not being assertive enough with my H--I craved his love and affection so much that I would self censor sometimes--I would do this with my mother as well. Both my H and my mother are/were strong, opinionated people. It gets depressing when you have to always be careful what you say. I have been working on being more assertive with him and it has helped our relationship. I don't know if any of these dynamics are going on with you but I do know that when we can't tell significant others important things--it can make us extremely low.

Ooops--your parents said you were horrible and you just said you're not horrid---not trying to pile on. However, that message must make it harder to talk to them! Unfortunately--you can't change your parents though when they say something like this be sure to tell them that you already feel terrible without being told such terrible things!