I kind of wish the parental units had accused me of "shutting them out"

Maybe I did... since I was 5 years old I was labelled as "withdrawn" by teachers, they knew there was something "wrong" with me but the parental units were too much into their secrets, disinterest in me etc to listen..

Surely I "should" be "over" all this by now..

Surely I "should" be content and not suicidal

Things did "get better" ... but now...

I have my doubts about posting, too many abusers have worked so hard to silence me (all my life)

Maybe they were "right"

I'm taking one day at a time, it's an old cliche but its all I can do to stay on this planet

I'm not sure about what all the many things I do wrong are..

"Family" apart from papa bear.. again, disinterested. So maybe it's me

The "problem" is me