Hello from a newbie.

I have struggled with overeating in vaying intensity ever since I remember having a say in what i ate.
The tendency was always there, through discussions with my mother she has told me that even as a toddler i would overeat quite often besides her efforts to make me stop or control it.
I have only spent 6 months in my ideal weight 5 years ago. Currently I am at my highest point above my ideal weight and tonight, what brought mme here was yet another overeating episode.
What i find worst of all to cope with though is the shame. The shame I cannot control myself, the shame that as soon as I am left alone i seek to eat secretly. The shame of looking at my body and knowing it's my weakness to control my impulses that create this image that I do not like.

And it's this shame that I find the hardest to cope with...