Hi T,

I really need a good session tomorrow. Please have your crap together (and enough coffee before my appointment!)

I don't want to spend another day crying in bed because I feel like a huge mess.

Another thread here got me thinking - maybe you're trying to get angry at you and to express it?

Blarghs. I completely adore you. I hate that you care and seem to be ok with the way I am. Would be easier if you just threw me out. I mean. Some people could use therapy way more than I do. I'm coping. You should care for someone who can't.

Why is this so confusing?