Hell yeah!!
Sorry to here you are struggling with this, I think that the therapeutic relationship can be extremely difficult for this of us suffering with relational difficulties. It can be a painful reminder of what we don't have but desperately want.
Therapeutic relationships drive me insane because I want them so bad but when I am in them I want to get away, run far away from them. It's a very painful attachment for me. I sometimes feel broken and fragile but you have to remember it takes two to have a relationship so your ts attachment dynamic will impact your own process. I am fearful and avoidant and my t had a disorganised attachment so we could never really have a strong relationship because of our attachment patterns. Maybe something similar is happening between you and your t.