I'm sure I don't have any advice to offer that you aren't already aware of. I just wanted to say that you should be proud of yourself for holding your family together and supporting them. I feel very strongly that our socioeconomic environment is making it incredibly difficult for families like yours - it's absurd that anyone working (more than) full time should still have to live in poverty. I want you to know that you are not broken, the way you feel is okay, and no one should ever judge you for doing what you need to with the cards you've been given. I don't know what the future will bring, but you have proven yourself to be an incredibly strong and selfless person. Don't be afraid to reach out to your state, to charity groups, or even to crowdfunding for help. I for one would donate to your cause in a heartbeat and I'm sure I'm not alone. There is no shame in struggling in a world that has been stacked up against you. Wishing you the best. <3