No - i have to thank you for trying to explain something that is so darn difficult to explain. I understand what you mean about it being a snapshot...life is just a mass of emotions, feelings, rationales, actions that every second can actually be a lifetime. How is it possible to simplify it into words?!

I hope in the future i will be able to look back at this and wonder at it - at how i had the chance to see things differently - but right now i just feel really lonely to be honest. I can't explain most of what i think and feel and it really hurts having to make a life when i'm not even sure i'm 'in' it. How do i know if i make the correct choices if everything seems so vast yet insignificant. Are these feelings and thoughts episodes? I do not even feel this is a physical or mental problem so i cannot describe these beliefs as espisodic - i wish i felt i could pop a pill and it all be better but sometimes the sky is too vast and emotions too much i know it cannot be all in my head. Something else must be involved.
I understand what you mean about experiencing all emotions at once. I am the same. I have had a time when i was able to 'see'/feel the emotions of everyone around me and when they interacted it was like chattering colours. It was claustrophobic. I felt deeply at a loss during that time as i watched the world bickering unable to see that it was falling further and further. I, sometimes, feel like screaming at everyone to be careful. But i do not.
At times i really feel i could make a difference to the world, but the minute i start to step outside my little comfort zone i am borbarded with every emotion under the sun. There is too much going on! How are we ever going to accomplish anything?? People say you can only do what you can do but somehow that seems so pitiful.
Do people grow callouses or do they simply ignore it? I fear that sometimes people cannot look or they will be toppled over like i am. But i am as guilty as others, i play out my life pretending to be nothing, being absorbed in the little things in life so that i am not able to see the bigger picture.
Is this all real or is this imaginary? How can i know what is right and wrong, when i don't know what 'is' and 'isn't'? Am i thinking too much? Does everyone feel like this? I just feel really lonely at times.