it's ok to be human ... no one has all the answers all the time ... be gentle to yourself ... try real hard to find one thing to focus on ... take that small step and try to enjoy it ... use it to reach that happy spot that is pushed down so far ... sometimes just a little step up is a start ... it will take time and we all slip back but you are loved here and have many friends who care and are concerned about you ... never forget that ... it's not just you ... it is a multitude here pulling for you ... if it ever gets too bad ... please reach out ... don't try to fight this alone ... your friend ... in love ... Tigger .