Very rarely does a person come along who's "bad" enough to deserve the pain you are in. No, you don't deserve it. You aren't bad. Hell, you're one of my better friends. You just don't strike me as 'bad'. What those people say, it's all out of ignorance and frustration. Ignorance of who you really are and the people here you've helped and frustrated that there isn't an magic 'fix it' button (I ****ing wish, right?). Don't let their bias become your thought process. You beat yourself up enough, they shouldn't join in like it's a damn birthday and you're the pinata.