Jennifer- I am so sorry you're going through a hard time. You've been so helpful to all here at PC, and I also understand the flip side where anyone can struggle....even when one has the ability to help others. I actually work in a helping profession, and I struggle a lot, but I digress. I hope you understand what I am trying to convey, since I'm not always good at explaining myself. You're a really kind person. Be kind to yourself please! Also, please continue to write here whenever you feel the need. We're here to support you.