I've researched her a lot, though didn't find too much. It's hard to trust her, but not because of anything she's done. It's because of all the people who have abandoned me. She knows this. She knows I trust her as much as I can. And my goal wasn't to figure anything out. I was looking up someone else, but since I was on her page, I read it to try to feel a connection. I'm only seeing her once every 4 weeks, so it's really hard on me.