My sibling for quite a long time was emotionally dependent, often exaggerating or faking injuries or illnesses for the sake of pity. Generally I would not assume this onto someone, except for something that she once stated while in crutches after a rather insignificant injury: "I like the pity." She generally lacked emotional independence, and it became quite evident to my immediate family later on. Fortunately, she did eventually acquire more independence, and the issue rarely arises anymore when I see her on the odd occasion.

Ironically enough, I ultimately suffered the polar opposite problem to hers and still do. When I was little, I was extraordinarily shy and could hardly manage a conversation with an adult, aside from my parents. As I aged, I became more reserved, even from my immediate family. On the contrary, I did eventually lose my shy attitude, though I was still certainly not outgoing. To the large extent, I commonly conceal injuries or illnesses, and I have not visited a doctor in quite a long time. Around the beginning of high school, I did begin losing some motivation towards my work, and my mother did have me visit a psychiatrist, though minimized as much information concerning myself as possible about myself. The only place in which I am ever capable of expressing myself fully is online, where my identity is entirely anonymous. Even among my closest friends, I cannot bring myself to express myself in the entirety. This world is so foreign to me, as though I live here as a mere spectator day after day. There exists no sentiment for me, yet I can merely dream about a life in another time and place. I have searched time and time again, yet I cannot ever find even a single individual who shares the same thought process, unless they too have deliberately concealed it as well. Honestly, I am not entirely sure how others manage to find it in themselves to share something so intimate with others, especially their weaknesses or flaws. Sharing such a burden with others seems so discomforting and so abstract, that I am frankly astonished that so many individuals manage.