Wether you want to die or not
You will die
Don't hurry plz
You've got loving family and you know what's gonna happen if you choose to die
If you die they will be suffered
And of course there are plenty of people who have terrible depression you are not alone
There are 7.4 billion people on this planet and you are not the first
Please don't do that It will be worse
Think about your childhood
When you were young
And young version of you wouldn't want to die in that way
Sorry for my bad english
I hope you overcome this!