I can empathize with this. I too have learned about how the mis-prescription of antidepressants can damage the brain. My first therapist wasn't educated in prescribing medications, and shouldn't have done so. In fact, I wish I had known then what I know now, it was entirely unethical and out of her scope to do so. But she gave recommendations to my GP, who has said to my face that he doesn't know all that much about psychiatric medication. And im fairly sure that this experience has ruined me. It makes me really sad to think about. I hope you can find some kind of enjoyment in your life.