I'm still up don't want to go to bed just yet. Oh boy am I angry with my Mother over how insensitive she truly is! I called her to tell how frightened I was over all the fireworks & I mentioned how I sort of got a sense how what my stepfather must have went through in Vietnam. However my Mom starts in on what happened to HIM! when I was talking about ME! I really didn't need to hear the stories about what he went through. My Mother seems to be in such denial over what she put me through when she left my Father as a toddler causing all the severe trauma which I still have not recovered from. She seems to have a selective memory when it comes to her damage. She just doesn't take any accountability. I'm so mad that I'm swearing. It's the only thing that makes me feel better. My Mother is crazy. I hate having a crazy Mother, worse still I hate having a crazy Mother who is so out of touch that she doesn't even realize HOW she is triggering me. So what I did was I kept interrupting her when she went into those war stories of my stepfathers. Let me tell you everyone it sucks having a crazy Mother. All I know is that she better not come back to me to stay with me when she grows tired of her Husbands abuse. She has done just that twice to me, and she is so, so needy, demanding, and just no fun at all.