Hi Mickey
And
good on you for speaking out, no apologies needed
whatsoever!!!

Do you think that maybe you
are really loved IRL but perhaps depression is putting a dampener on the way you feel it??
Maybe that "emptiness", "gap" or "something or love missing" is much more about the depression than about reality??
Or perhaps some people in your life aren't used to showing love so much
despite feeling it??
If so I'm not sure whether talking to someone close to you about it may help??
But either way, you know you're not alone on here, right??

And not only not alone, but you're also deeply appreciated by
lots of people on here, so really hoping that you can (if not right now, then at some point soon) feel that from people out there IRL as well as love.
From what I know of you, you deserve to be loved.
Alison