im just a mess and dont like talking about my substance use...

but my time perception is skewed and i forget how much time passes so it feels like much time sometimes but i guess maybe not much time passes... or maybe a lot of time passes... but nothing changes...

i dont like thinking about the substances i guess because its sensitive subject for me...
dont like talking about it much because i guess parts of me in denial about stuff...

i dont really know... im not researching..
im just stressed... but there is nothing anyone can do
i just gotta learn to live with it

ill be fine...