I can't deny, I do desire power for my own reasons. I don't want to control, use, or abuse people by any means, however, I do want to feel like I have some value to people and some degree of control over my life and future. I don't ever want to be powerless ever again nor do I want other people to have the power to hurt me. I want to be too powerful and too important to ever be hurt by another person ever again. This is perhaps one of my deepest, darkest desires.

Still though, I like the idea of writing works of fiction, both as a side hobby, and as a way to earn some extra money. I might look into it.