First off, this is in no shape or form directed towards anyone at PC. You've been more helpful and supportive compared to many people in my life.

I'm in need of support right now. Sorry in advance for the long post.

Rant: People complicate my life. They aren't there for me, full of empty promises, go on and on about their problems without much concern for me. I don't want to be emotionally needy and do know I should work on that, but I do feel many people trigger me. Some make me feel incompetent and take advantage. All I am is kind to others, but people seem to take it for granted. Then, there's people I thought were trustworthy, but it blows up in my face. That's the worst when you think you can trust someone and you open your heart up to them. Some even think I am making a fool out of myself when I make certain decisions and like to see them end up going wrong. It's as if they get a thrill, like "Ha, I told you so." They don't understand mania and depression. It's hurtful.

I am referring to many people in my life; not just one. It makes me really sad and triggers depression and anger. It makes me want to shut everyone out in order to protect myself from being hurt and disappointed time after time. Bipolar makes the problem worst. Self-destructive patterns, taking things inward, extreme anxiety. Yes, very severe anxiety and some anger attached to it. A lack of control.

Can anyone relate to any of this? Or....any thoughts at all? I'm really upset.