Depression isn't so much a problem for me... at least not in the typical sense. My struggles tend to lean more toward anger & anxiety. I have shut everyone out... period. I have no extended family... & no friends or acquaintances by choice. (I consider it to be my gift to the world!)

I am married. But I even keep my spouse at arm's length as much as possible. Just yesterday we were out for a walk with our dog... which was nice. But as we were walking along it occurred to me that, under pretty-much any-&-all circumstances, I exist in my own world... walled off from everyone. It's too late to do anything about it now, even if I wanted to. (I don't.) It all just is what it is. In my case, though, I'm old. So it's okay. It's probably not a good way for someone younger to live though. So I send hugs your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within, Raven...