Some parts of this thread I very much identify with (wanting to make the world a better place, stand up to injustices, protect the vulnerable, etc.). However I would never want to have the ability to force people to like me, be in awe of me in some way, etc. I'd rather just get better at being the best version of me that I can, and if that's not good enough for some, oh well ... you can't please everyone.

I know that various fears hold me back from being as assertive, expressive, persuasive or confident as I would like. I blame that stack of baggage for being the root cause of my depression, in fact. (And I badly want to go "full Dexter" on those ******* fears, but not on people).

DarknessIsMyFriend, I think putting your fantasies onto paper in story form is a great idea. It seems a lot of people can relate to feeling powerless or less significant than they would like to be, wanting to right the world's many ongoing wrongs, etc. Thousands of novels, movies, TV shows, graphic novels and games point to the popularity of these themes!