So there's a couple of things going on that are sucking the air out of everything else positive going on.

I recently finished school in my 40's, and my new career is going great, really happy with all the progress there. I know there are people there who want to see me succeed because they see my work ethic and the fact that I want to be there and help out. I'm not perfect or try to be, but I work damn hard.

But, I'm not as happy as I should be, in fact, I'm not happy at all. It doesn't show on the outside, but on the inside I'm quite sad.

I found out the organization that hosts support groups in my area doesn't exist any more. (long story as to why) I find myself thinking about where I can get help if I need it? It's leaving me a little lost.

Also, I'm looking at the number of people who have distanced themselves from me, leaving me wondering what I am doing wrong. This year has been tough, and something I've gone through before. The more I improve and pull myself out of a rut, the more people I've gotten to know keep away from me. All of a sudden they are always busy. Sigh.