Hello!!! Welcome to PC. I don't know what to tell you but I'm here if you need to talk and I support you. I wish I could walk in your shoes for awhile. My past traumas has brought out such an emotional intensity in me that it's overwhelming to me. I'm sorry you are having an emotional block. If this group doesn't work out, what about an individual therapist to get to the bottom of it? Good luck and best wishes.