I recently found an audio version of one of those books:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/step...lf-esteem.html

I grew up in a very small town myself--I kept my dreams alive by reading all of the time. I read fantasy constantly--before the movie Star Wars came out I read the novel (Luke Skywalker leaves his planet for a higher calling); The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings (both hobbits undertake perilous journeys); Kidnapped (a boy who is shanghaied to become a sailor and sees the world); etc. etc.

You may have to figure out how to relocate somehow. It may be an impossible dream but it might be the only way. I served in the military for a while and lived in Okinawa, Japan, and Hawaii for a while. Being sent so far away forced me to leave everything behind. Living in another country is a mixed experience (there is so much to explore but sometimes you are homesick) but it is so much better than feeling "stuck" as I know you are currently feeling. In the meantime--books can be a great escape when you have free time or are unable to sleep. I still read everyday......