I had lots of T's over the years, some ended abruptly, some I took some time, trying to "work things out".

I tried to work things out with my last T and in the end, I think it was her stuff, not mine, that made it impossible. But was there something about "her stuff" that drew me in and kept me there for 6 years? Plus, there was some other stuff that she helped me with. Several months after the "rupture without repair" it connected to me that how I felt about her, and the ending, was similar to, or the same as, how I had felt about some relatives in my early life, feelings that had been too horrible to feel at the time.

I'm still working through a lot of that, but with support groups and PsychCentral, not another T.

Is it possible that something like that could be going on with you, too? Some strong feelings from long ago that this relationship was similar to, or reenacted?

So sorry that you feel heartbroken now. Heartbrokenness is horrible, for sure. I hope things get better soon.