I am sorry you are feeling such deep pain.

I do understand, as I struggle with this often, too.

Just yesterday, I was anxious for bed time, so I could go to sleep.
Just this morning, I'd hesitated to fully awaken because I did not want to face the day today.

As soon as I stop doing tasks and my mind is free, I start thinking about leaving this earth. I start regretting anything that makes leaving more difficult.

You aren't alone.
I hope you can have these thoughts without taking action.

What helps you with this? Anything?

Please stay safe.


WC