Upon contemplating, I have grown to realize that my one true weakness is fear. I consider the world a dark, lonely, scary place where if I can't go to any length or sink to any low necessary to win, than I will be lost and alone on the streets someday.

The world is dark and lonely and people are scary. Everything is scary.

The terror is crippling. I can't do anything without wallowing in fear and depression.

The only way that will change is if I become that in which I fear. I need to become one with my own darkness. I need to embrace my inner darkness as my one friend because it has been the only being that hasn't abandoned me yet.

People are bad. People will lie, cheat, steal, kill, and betray. I need to be the same way to survive because the world is a scary place. I need to obtain wealth and power no matter the cost or I will be alone. If I became homeless, I can bet my life that no human would care about me because I'm not worth caring about. I'm not worth caring about because I have no inherit value as a person.

I have no money, no job, no car. I struggle to connect with and empathize with people. I can't understand people without getting frustrated with them. I am worthless to people.

I am nothing without my inner darkness. My inner darkness has been the one friend that I ever had when I had nobody else to love me and tell me everything will be OK. I have had nobody else. I've been lost and alone my whole life.

Well I'm done. I submit to the needs of my inner darkness. I will obtain the resources needed no matter the cost. I owe my inner darkness for keeping me alive so long and I am not one to abandon beings that show me compassion and loyalty no matter how dark and twisted they are. If a serial killer or mass murder came to me and accepted me unconditionally, my darkness and despair would shield them from the light and from the hypocritical justice of this dark lonely world. Why, then should I neglect my own inner darkness?

Hello darkness, my old friend. I submit myself to you in exchange for the power that I need to ensure my future. Now help me defeat fear by becoming it.