Finally today it's an end with my T. It needed over something stupid but things weren't working beforehand. We had multiple issues before with her starting session late and having her phone go off during session multiple times.

I was previously going to take a break and I cancelled my session. The day prior to when my session was originally set I went to my Ts office for my sons to see their T which is in the ask place. She asked me if I wanted to talk and go back. She said she had a cancellation. I said it was unexpected and that I had no money on me and so then she said that I could pay her next week. I said alright not noticing that it was 20 min into the hour. She ended at the hour anyway so I got 40 min out of that. I was a little upset and thought that she's just trying to make a dollar. Then I said well maybe I'm reading too much into this.

Recently I had issues in life. It was several things that came up at once. I was upset and was going to use my own coping skills to handle these situations. Then I thought that if I went to session this week that she would just tell me how wrong I am and that I exaggerate. I tried canceling a few days ago and she encouraged me not to. I followed along.

Now today we were suppose to eat lunch during session in her office to help me with my eating disorder. I communicated with her before that I couldn't make up my mind as to where to order from and that I was having a tough time and she insisted for me to choose. Today she contacts me 3hrs before our session and asked me what I decided on. I said nothing that I'm having a tough time eating today. She then got upset and said that she's heading into session. It was 11:55. I'm thinking she never heads into my session early. She's always late for mine. She said that if I didn't choose then nevermind. I responded and said that I told her two days ago that I was having a tough time deciding and I told her today. She can pick the restaurant and I'll pick my own food. I then said but if she's going to have an attitude then forget about it. She responded and said to me that we can't keep doing this which we never have before. She said that she only brought a snack thinking that she was eating with me. I said forget I'm just not going into today and that I'll pay her next week for last week's session and today's no show from me. She said ok. I told her that maybe I'll see her when I come back from vacation. She said to let her know when that is. We spoke many times about when I'm going on vacation. I told her that if she doesn't remember then I just can't deal with this. She said that she doesn't remember exactly the date. I didn't ask her to remember the date. She said she's not doing the work for me. I said to her that all I wanted was guidance and that today didn't have to end up the way it did. I said that I'm taking a break and I didn't hear back. That's that. I'll hand her the money next Tuesday. I'm not sure what I'm paying her for? I was upset because I was going to cancel Originally and she encouraged me not to and I should've. I didn't want to waste the money in gas to go see her on top of the session fee. If I originally stuck to my cancellation I would've saved myself $90.