Hi everyone!

I haven't posted in a while, or even checked in on my friends here, because I have been flying so high in mania for the past week. I haven't been spending a lot of money or sleeping with a lot of men, but I have been engaging in immoral acts online that I am not proud of.

I have been struggling with my Spirituality for a while now (for those of you who know me), and I have often wondered if the closer I get to my "spiritual self" is that just mania? But then when I do these acts online I am not being "spiritual" I am being promiscuous which is also the sign of mania.

I guess I couldn't be more confused, with my spiritualty and my mania, so I pose the question to my bipolar friends:

Do you question your morals when you are in mania? Do you find yourself feeling bad for some of the things you have done? How did you get over it and move past it?

I could really use some help with this because I am really struggling.