You said "
. I had never felt so awful in my life and I have gone through a lot of ****".

I'm not sure what kind of **** you have gone through,but sometimes people can experience trauma and then years later have a delayed reaction,something like what you talked about here can kind of set things off,set PTSD symptoms in gear.What you posted about isn't enough to cause PTSD but is enough to trigger PTSD symptoms of someone who already has it.

But since nobody here can diagnose you or even guess really,it's best to talk with a professional about what you're experiencing.I would hate to say it's only been a month,give yourself time to get over such an upsetting event when it's possible it could be more than that.

Are you in therapy or have a diagnosis of any kind already?