My mother left my brother and I with our father when I was in kindergarten. She came in and out of my life in a wishy-washy sort of way, usually with some random new guy on her arm or in a suicidal spell if there wasn't a man in her life. I always found myself being the mom for her whenever she came around. For a long time I was really skittish around women; I had a hard time getting close to them, partially because they would cause me such anxiety. Now that I'm older and in the work force and living an adult life, I find myself drawn to powerful/strong women as well. I have dabbled in same-sex relationships and actually found it to be an incredibly healing and self-revealing experience. I did end up marrying a man, but I fully embrace the bisexual side of me that found a voice during that critical time in my life. As far as unhealthy obsessions go, you could definitely do worse than strong female role models. I don't think you're a freak at all. You recognize something in the world around you that is important and special. I think you'll feel a lot better about yourself and maybe ease the intensity of your obsession if you allow yourself to experience it fully - don't fight it or try to explain it away, but just let it be and see what it has to teach you. Maybe it would be cathartic for you to experience a relationship with a strong female (just a thought - it doesn't mean you have to completely abandon your "straight" life - unless you want to). In any case, I actually think it's kind of magical that there are people out there noticing and appreciating strong women. Wishing you love and peace. <3