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Originally Posted by DodgersMom
I've mentioned it before briefly but he didn't seem phased by it. We didn't really dive into it. Not sure he really gets how serious I am.
I am sure it stems from my childhood emotional abuse/neglect. I am not even someone who allows my "best friend" to get close to me. We live in different states, see each other 1x a year and communicate by text only otherwise.
I will try to bring it up again. I HATE feeling needy and I feel ashamed to want to push him away when he is trying to help, ugh... hard convo but I will do my best on Friday
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The "not sure he really gets how serious I am" was the beginning of the downfall between me and my former T. NOT saying this is going to happen for you.
For me, It turned into me bringing it up and her saying, "Oh you wanna talk about this again?" and later when I jokingly would say, "Almost didn't come today. Tough," she would kinda roll her eyes (jokingly as well) and say, "Oh God, not again." I often joke around about things I'm serious about, a huge trait of someone with attachment issues, and she not only missed it, but was sarcastic. I don't mind sarcasm, but it screamed to me she didn't quite know the issues I have.
For me, I want to be "seen." I take into consideration what a T asks, what they don't ask, all of it and she didn't seem to "see" me. There's only been one therapist who describes me back to me and that's Alan Robarge and he's in Philly, but I love his YouTube videos.