ya i read your story, it was tough and very sad.

i don't think he would be like that, he has been nothing but gentle and kind since even our first phone call before we met. he reassured me when i brought up my attachment that he isn't gonna change how he is with me and he wont terminate me.

i just think all i ever said about it was "i feel myself torn between embracing the attachment and pushing you away" and then he talked about how the attachment was ok with him unless it got to an unhealthy level and we moved on to the next issue.

i just dont think he knows that i am actually already pushing, or trying to, push him away, weirdly enough last week was the best week I've had so far, then a stupid thing he said in his email, just rubbed me the wrong way and I've been all about doing anything to not go anymore. sigh...

i have a desire to tell him but knowing me i wont. ill keep it in and be all excited and happy to see him again.