jDNA. Did he say anything in session that might help you here - or did he say anything that would lead you to believe/question that he thinks you are gross. I thought he said that it wasn't a surprise based on your age and your experiences.

I wished he'd text or call, I do. I do think he doesn't think you are gross, and I understand how much hearing that directly from him (again and again and again) would mean; how much that reassurance would help. What you have, what you can try to hold onto is what he has said. Try to believe, try to have faith in what he has said.