Oh and to clarify, I know I will likely need a job to achieve my goals. Unfortunately, finding employment is still hard for me because no matter how hard I try, I can't find any self confidence. The only time I feel good about myself is when other people compliment me. If I am not getting the idea that I have value reinforced by other people, I feel like I have no worth as a person to anybody. So how the hell am I supposed to find a job when nobody wants somebody that doesn't have confidence?

One of the only reason why I started college in the first place is because I need help with employment. I need access to services to help me build my interviewing skills up and obtain self confidence and more importantly, I need somebody to help me with job placement. I figured that qualifying for the federal work study would be the only way I can find a job that I don't completely hate because I have no value to any employer if they don't have a financial incentive to hire me.

If it wasn't for these reasons, I would not have started up with college in the first place. Associate's degrees are pointless because people only value 4 year degrees and I do not want to waste 4 years of my life away on college when I could just as easily learn the stuff that I need or want to know on the internet for free without all of the boring stuff and rules and pressure that comes with a regular college. I want to enjoy my life for once instead of being miserable all of the time because life is too damn short for this crap.