Why did I even bother starting this thread? It's not like anybody will ever accept or understand me.

I'm past the point of no return. I turn 26 next month and I have already wasted most of my life anyways. I never went to a prom, I never went to parties or had a girlfriend or have had a chance to do any other "normal" young people things. Now, I no longer even have any friends and I can't make friends when I am so ****ing miserable and unhappy all of the time. People want somebody who makes them happy, not somebody like me who is sad and angry all of the time.

I've tried to cut down on game time in the past and it has never ended well for me. I am so overwhelmingly unhappy with everything else that the moment I turn off my game, I go from being relatively content to being so unhappy that all I feel is anger, sadness, and numbness. I can't be happy no matter what and I don't know how to change.

I appreciate some of the advice given to me in this thread but it still doesn't change the fact that I can't work past how chronically unhappy I am to try to discipline myself to do them.

I am not cut out to live in this world. I wish somebody would kill me because I'm too much of a weak little coward to do it myself.